FROM FAT TO FIT AND CLIENT TO TRAINER
18 months ago I was fat. The clothes that used to fit me made me feel fatter every time I looked in my wardrobe, but I didn’t want to throw them away because I was going to fit back into them someday…someday being such a false hope. My tummy especially I hated. I hated how it oozed out the top of my jeans, pants, skirts, and no matter how hard I tried I just could not suck it in enough to make me look thinner. I tried to wear baggy tops that didn’t show my tummy which still made me look fat. I was almost in tears every time I was in front of a mirror. And photos were almost a phobia. I hated the way my arm flab wobbled when I clapped or simply just moved my arms in different directions. I hated the way that photos side on would accentuate the arm flab. I hated my thighs and the way they rubbed together. During my last fat summer I was wearing anti-chaffing cream daily so that my thighs didn’t rub red and raw. And I hated my double chin – even if I managed to look not-so-fat in clothes, I still had that flab under my chin that everyone saw.
I knew what I had to do but for some reason I just could not do it. I didn’t really know how and where to start and didn’t have any motivation to do something about it. I was fat and I was stuck there. I was depressed. I was lost in my own fat sad world. And to top it all off, I was diagnosed as pre-diabetic in November 2009.
In October 2010 I had lost 21kg, I am now a full qualified MAX International Fitness Prfoessional, I have clients who I help to lose weight, be strong, be fit, be healthy and love who they are…I am no longer pre-diabetic!! AND I did a Body Sculpting competition – something that was one of my worst nightmares just 12 months prior. My journey from fat to fit was grueling, painful, and most definitely one of the hardest things I’ve done – but with that hard work comes magnificent rewards!
It has now been 9 months since my body sculpting competition and I am back up to a healthy weight for my height. And I’ve learnt that almost more important than losing the weight is keeping the weight off. My weight started to creep up too much, and I realized that I had to dig deep within me again. I had to take myself back to all the pain that I felt, and ultimately caused myself, by being overweight in the first place – inferiority, insignificance, intimidated, ugly, unimportant, unloved, unwanted, unattractive, unworthy, hideous, stuck, embarrassing, depressed, gross, frumpy, fat, fat, fat! And because I had freed myself from ‘that fat world’ before I realized that I already had the map to find ‘my happy self’ again – I just had to follow it. And the most important key to my map was doing exercise that I enjoyed and having an eating plan that I enjoyed. The times when I tried to introduce exercise and food that I didn’t enjoy, was too hard, and just didn’t work. For me, this had to be a lifestyle plan, not an on again off again cycle.
People generally refer to weight loss as a physical challenge, which it is, but our bodies are of course controlled by our minds. So weight loss is in fact a massive mental challenge. If you can tell your mind that you are doing it, then your body will follow. Dig deep and then deeper again and then a bit more, to find that pain inside, that being fat causes you. Keep digging til you find tears. Then turn that pain into drive – fuel up your mind with a full tank of pain, pull out of that fat garage, and start driving down the road to personal freedom. There will always be pot holes along the way, so keep topping up that tank full of pain. In between the pot holes will be your milestone traffic lights, where you can check off each part of your journey. Continue along that road and you will arrive at your new happy world – as your new healthy, happy, lean self. You can then park that car fuelled with pain, and jump into your new car powered by achievement, pride, experience, attractiveness, empowerment, confidence, worthiness, satisfaction, elation, energy, smiles, bubbliness, sparkles and happiness. This new car is fully controlled by you and you only. This is personal freedom.
A very amazing man once said “Change YOUR thoughts and you change YOUR world” (Nelson Mandela). Your world is the only world that you can control so take control – decide where you want your road to lead to and keep driving until you get there.
When you gain control of your body, then you gain control of your life. Please let me help you!!